Before I entered primary school, I was an extremely stubborn, talkative and ‘guai lan’ type of child. Ever since I entered primary school onwards, I was often being told not to talk. I have then become reserved and aloof while paying attention to the happenings around me.

Throughout years of such ‘trainings’, especially those years in Uni , I become more observant and sensitive for sensing the negative vibes around me. I become very guarded. I have never lowered my guard before. Through the experiences that my Uni friends have been through, I have become more skeptical. I have been wearing a mask and rarely easily trusted anyone since then… Truth always finds its way to reveal to me sooner or later.


Recently, it has come to my attention that certain colleague of mine have been doing an action behind my back that I myself have condemned on. Not that this action is targeted at me or designed with the intention to harm me… But, the impact will still be there. He  / She should not be carrying out such an action. He / She should know the consequences.

Frankly speaking, I am quite bothered by this colleague’s action and disappointed in him / her. I was quite disturbed and distracted at work, at meetings. I  have naively thought that we could help one another in our work. I guess this is a small price to pay for the stupidity of lowering my guard in this company…


To this colleague of mine…

I am really very disappointed in you if you really have done that. I know this might be a strong word to use but I really felt being “betrayed”! As a senior staff, you should know practically what can be done and what should not be done. Your action really makes me wonder if I could continue to trust you or be guarded towards you from now onwards!




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I finally see some light!

Since I am currently waiting for my hair to be dry, I have decided to write a reflection article on my new working environment on an impulse.

It is 1 year exactly now. I am actually surprised that I have stayed in this company for so long… Honestly, I do not have a good impression of this company, the working environment and the staff during my 1st day of work.

With the exception of HR being cordial and trying her best to make me feel at ease, nothing seems to be good. I was then filled with regrets for leaving my ex-company. To me, this company was really sucked and things were very messy. The vibes that the staff had given out to me were mainly hostile, cold and indifferent! I was contemplating if I should resign immediately for a good 2 weeks. I was utterly miserable. 😢😢😢

I have managed to cope a bit, balancing my working relationships with my colleagues. I have a hard time doing so as there are at least 10 different types of different personalities to cope with in my department. On top of this, I have to also balance up with working relationships with colleagues from other departments. I guess its hard to cope when there is no one you could rely on, some one whom you could click with. 😧

Then came my colleague from my ex-company. Although her presence has helped to defuse a certain level of uncertainty, I am still feeling the stress. The stress level stems directly from the CEO and my colleagues in my department. I guess I have had a very sheltered, protected and smooth pathway in my ex-company.

Lots of events took place during this 1 year. I have come to know my colleagues better. We are now able to share and joke amicably with one another. I have also learnt how to communicate with different personalities though there is still a huge gap for improvements.

With the addition of a new consultant, things start to get better. At the very minimal, I no longer envision myself drowning in an open sea. He has helped to ‘tidy up’ and streamlining the processes and procedures. Through his workshops, I have seen unguarded facets of my colleagues’ emotions and personalities. Through these workshops, I feel that we have understood ourself better. We have also emerged out to be more approachable and relatively close with one another.

Things are moving and getting better with his help and intervention. I could now catch glimpses of dim light at the other end. Hopefully, this light will continue to get brighter. 😄





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Equality among both the gender?

This topic has always been in existence. It has never been clear if such equality has been achieved in Singapore’s current society. There are too much grey areas to draw a distinctive line. At least this is my own personal view till my Christmas Eve dinner.

For this year, 2015, both my hubby and I went to Todai @ Marina Bay Sands for our Christmas Eve dinner international seafood buffet.

We had been seated among the tables catered for couples. A slightly young couple, maybe in their early 20s, were seating at my left. Lets call their table A. To my right, there was another pair of couple, maybe in either late 20s or early 30s. Lets call their table B.

This year, instead of “attacking” the fresh oysters and big, fat and juicy crab legs, we have decided to eat other types of food offered in Todai. Most of the patrons had been busy stacking their plates with lots of oysters and Alaskan crab legs and pinchers before going back to their table.

I was eating my roasted duck meat when I heard some ‘clanking’ sound, coming from my left (Table A, the young couple). Out of curosity, I turned my head slightly and peeped at the girlfriend. Her boyfriend, at that particular moment ,was still out there at the seafood buffet counter (2nd or 3rd rounds) and had not returned back to his seat.

To my surprise, she seemed as if she was trying to arrange the seafood to make it looked nicer on her boyfriend’s plate! 😨 I was thinking that either both of us had a generation gap or that she was too bored waiting for her boyfriend and thus, started playing with the food.

Then came the slightly older couple who were seated to my right (Table B). This table took quite a huge amount of seafood. Plates of Alaskan crab legs and pinchers and oysters had been placed on the table. Similarly, the boyfriend was often “making rounds” at the buffet counters.

Same sound was heard again.. This time, it was from my right. I know that I should not be so busybody… but I just can’t resist the temptation to peep and to see if the girlfriend would do the same thing as what the other girlfriend had done…

If there was ever a best girlfriend award, I would nominate her! Her boyfriend had a muscular build and was bigger than her. What she had done had really left me speechless!😲

She had actually squeezed the lemon and put in the chilli sauce for all the 8 oysters that were supposed to be her boyfriend’s. She had also cut open the crab leg before passing it over to her boyfriend for consumption!

This was the “role” of most of the guys in the past, especially during the courtship period. It seems that this role has been reversing slowly throughout these years. I was quite stunned!

I even have a few short, self-querying moments… Not that I questioned myself on why I have not done so for my hubby (hahah, oops 😆), but more on the worrying factor that I might have been disconnected from the society although I am currently working…

If this is the norm now, it seems that that equality between both genders have been reversing slowly throughout these years. 😜

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Posted by on December 30, 2015 in Passing Thoughts...


How Time flies….

How Time flies…

In just a twinkle of the eye, the first and second days of the lunar Chinese New Year (CNY) had passed.The lunar Chinese New Year public holidays in Singapore have come to an end for some. My hubby, for an example, starts work today. Poor fellow! 😁

To summarise how I have spent my last five days (from CNY eve till yesterday), everything went off like a breeze! Hahah, I am also not quite sure how I spent my time away.

CNY eve (Wed)

I vividly remember that CNY eve was to have our reunion dinner with my parents in law. After that, my hubby and I were thinking of either to go to Chinatown or the Ang Bao River. In the end, we ended up watching Starhub cable TV instead as it will be very crowded over there.

First day of CNY (Thurs)

We have our reunion lunch with my parents on the first day of CNY instead. We then went to house visiting with parents. The usual custom applies. We greet our relatives, give the mandarin oranges to the elders and distribute red packets (as a form of good blessings) to the juniors. I think my hubby and I have also went to the Ang Bao River on this day too (if not, then it will be on the second day), during the evening if I remember correctly. End of the day.

Second day of CNY (Fri)

Honestly speaking, I can’t really recall how we spent our second CNY day. 😓 All I am certain is that we have gone to Vivo to book a pain of movie tickets for this Chinese CNY show “Vegas to Macau II”  and ended this day by watching Starhub cable tv again till one or two plus in the morning! 😂😂😂 This is our way to relax and de stress ourselves. 😜

Third day of CNY (Sat)

21st Feb is a special date to me as this is the day I have arrived to this world. I remember dreaming of my Junior College friends, Marie and Susyna meeting up this CNY and catching up on latest news, okay, gossips, with one another when Marie has just out of sudden goes missing! This short dream ended with me and Susyna go searching for her.

What surprises me when I am awake is that I have received an watsapp birthday greetings from Marie! We have not really been keeping in contact with one another. This is really a pleasant surprise. Birthday greetings via Facebook come in as well. I am really quite surprise and happy to receive so many well wishes. 😊

I think my hubby and I have gone to Tampines to “walk around”. No point celebrating my birthday as everywhere is crowded during CNY period. And yes, we ended this day with the company of the Starhub cable tv as well. 😂😂😂 I do hope that my hubby will not have any unpleasant shock when the water and electrical bill arrives. 😝

Fourth day of CNY (Sun)

This day marks the commencement of praying to Tai Tsui for a smooth transition in whatever things we do for this year, the year of Goat. We have woke up early to go to the Chong Ghee Temple to go pray Tai Tsui. This is to avoid the crowd.

In the afternoon, we went to Vivo for our lunch and movie treats. This show “Vegas to Macau II” is really a good comedy show. We have a good laugh over it and enjoy ourselves very much. In the evening, we are back at home, watching Starhub cable tv again! Hahah, I think we almost practically about to become Mr and Mrs couch potatoes!!! 😂😂😂

My hubby has officially started work today. For me, I am practically ‘rotting’ in Starbucks cafe, sipping my coffee, playing my games, surfing net and composing this post via my iPad. 😁😁😁 sounds good huh? Hehe, just let me indulge myself for once before I start work on Wednesday. 😜

Once again, happy lunar Chinese New Year to all! 😊

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Posted by on February 23, 2015 in Passing Thoughts...


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Preparation for Chinese New Year 2015

Preparation for the arrival of Year 2015 Lunar Chinese New Year, the year of the Wooden Goat, is definitely not a easy task for me!

The Lunar Chinese New Year (CNY) falls on this Thursday! I have just come to terms that yesterday night that I still have a lot of uncompleted tasks to carry out! Oh gosh!

I have been too complacent, thinking that I will have more than enough time to prepare for the arrival of CNY (since this CNY arrives quite late this year)! It was only till yesterday night, I have realized that a lot of things have not been done yet!  -_-”’

I don’t even have the time to test out and play with my new oven. I have bought the ingredients with the intention of baking pineapple tarts. I guess this will have to wait now since I am currently feeling more panicky in the preparation process. I do not have the luxury time to indulge myself in bakery for the time being. =(

I guess my hubby and I will have to do last minute shopping later when we knock off and tomorrow as well, if the need arises. It will be a race against time! Everything will be purchased in a haste and the shopping malls will sure to be very packed! Argh!!! Oh god! I do so hate last minute shopping!

Hopefully, by tomorrow evening, all the following tasks have been completed and my sudden panic attack will subside.

1. A new pair of shoes for hubby

2. At least 1 more set of clothes for myself

3. Change the bed sheet

4. Tidied up the whole house

5. Prepare and pack the red packets

6. Buy sweets, chocolates and mandarin oranges

7. Prepare and display the sweets, chocolates and CNY goodies in the respective containers

Sighz, not sure if I have left out any uncompleted tasks unknowingly…

May this 2015 Lunar Chinese New Year will be a smooth running year for all!

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Posted by on February 17, 2015 in Passing Thoughts...


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My favourite Christmas gift – Yr 2014

I know that this post has come quite late…hahaha but it is always best to be late than never right? =X

In Yr 2014, I have received a fair share of Christmas gifts. Most of these gifts are mainly facial products and hand cream products. This is a big contrast to the gifts that I have had received in Year 2013. My Yr 2013 gifts are mainly chocolates! Hahah

Out of these 2014 Christmas gifts, the one that leaves a deep impression on me is the one my colleague, Jamie, has given. She has actually given me a bottle of hand gel wrapped in a paper bag. On top of this, she has also handmade a gingerbread man, attached a wooden peg to it and used this to secure the gift. Jamie has a flair in doing handicrafts.

It is love at first sight when I have received this gift. Okay, it is more of love at first sight with the gingerbread man. It is so adorable! Its size is also just nice. I have jokingly requested for a female gingerbread man (Let’s call it gingerbread lady, shall we? =P). Guess what? Jamie has racked her brains and come out with a gingerbread lady for me within a  few days after my request.

Although I have not shown it (I belong to the category of “not capable to express sentiments freely”), I really feel touched. From the way she has created the gingerbread lady, she has put in efforts to create this gingerbread lady (a ballerina) although she is usually feeling exhausted when she reached home after work. Yes, I LOVE this gingerbread lady as well!

Chirstmas gift - Gingerbread

I have attached a picture of Jamie’s handicrafts. Cute right? Now my gingerbread man has the company of his girlfriend and are sitting on my office desk. Whenever, I feel stressed at work, I will stop work for a while and “play” with them to de-stress myself. Hehe =X

Happy Valentine’s Day 2015 and Lunar Chinese New Year 2015 to all! =)

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Posted by on February 13, 2015 in General, Passing Thoughts...


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Merry, Merry Christmas to all!

Hi all,

Christmas is here! Merry Chirstmas to you and your family!

Have an enjoyable celebration! 😊

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Posted by on December 24, 2014 in Passing Thoughts...


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